Last night I had a conversation with the girl. I was telling her how I was feeling about something, now I understand that feelings are not fact, but it’s a fact that the way I was feeling was as I mentioned several time might just be me. In the past the girl has wanted me to tell her how I’m feeling and I do, granted I give her a running commentary of what’s going on and what’s in my head, which I may start doing here. I have even gotten better of telling her when she hurts my feelings, and I’m not trying to be a baby but usually I just suck it up and deal with it internally. But that has the drawback of it little by little making me shut down and become a bit withdrawn.
Since coming back from MsC I told her I would work on talking more about what I’m feeling, she said and believes that she can’t give me what I want if I don’t tell her the feelings behind something’s. So, I’m trying. During our conversation she said something that hurt me, and I told her so. She took a deep breath and said “how could the truth hurt your feelings?”
The statement the girl made was true, and had someone told me that the truth is not supposed to hurt me, I would not have grown to hate my sister, hearing how I was not feminine like her. Which is true, I’m not feminine but it still hurt me hearing it.
I guess I should suck it up, and I also should look at how the truth might set me free