For some reason I woke up at 2am with a raging hard-on. For the record I am a female bodied person. But in keeping with full disclosure and transparency and all I will admit something that I’m not sure I ever did here. Up until the age of 9 years old I thought I was a boy. I don’t want to get into the reality that came crashing down on me the summer before I turned 10, needless to say that waking up with a raging hard-on is not unusually for me. Al least up through my 30s.

So all of a sudden I’m a wake from a dream that I can only remember was an erotic  yearning of some kind. I opened my eyes and looked over at the girl. She was sound asleep, she is known to talk in her sleep and what I thought I heard her say “was do you want some porn sauce?” I don’t usually respond to her but asked “what kind of sauce?” It sounded to me like porn sauce, so I lay awake thinking, what word ends with -orn-. We don’t look at porn, she is not fond of porn, so I thought this must be the cause of my erotic yearning. As I feel back to sleep, my last thought was “why yes I would like some porn sauce.” And this I’ve come full circle to thinking I was a boy. The only thing I could think of was maybe the girl wanted a facial. Because that’s the only way I could think of her getting porn sauce? If you get my meaning. I was still awake and got up to smoke a cig, and reply to a post listening to her sleep, until 3:30am thanking the Goddess that I had the day free from work today.

We woke up late, 9:30am and over coffee I asked her about it. She had no clue what porn sauce would be, and when I gave her my theory, she gave me one of her very reasoned replies, “well that’s one way of looking at it.

I may have to break out the Ouija board, where is Freud when you need him?



About Raven

To much to state here. I'm intrested in many things. The important thing you need to know is that at the age of 20 I decided to put something to rest. My families luggage. don't get me wrong they gave me a foundation for many things. But I had to build on the foundation and be true to myself. Hope you find your truth.

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