i had the doctor yesterday. i really like my pain management doctor and junior doctor. i’ve gotten used to being there alone, though it took many months for that to happen. i am comfortable enough to tell her i’m grumpy, having nightmares, meds messed up.
She assures me it is a normal side effect, all of it is, and she feels bad about the med delivery system that sucks, but that everyone is being pushed in that direction and away from a pharmacy. She says it will take two weeks for me to feel normal again.
i feel too bad to point out it is memories coming at me at night. i don’t need her thinking i’m crazy and even people that should know better do it. Somehow, other people abusing you as a child makes them jump to the conclusion it is you.
It stormed most of yesterday, there is a wind advisory today, and snow with frigid temps tomorrow. i’m thinking i need to do laundry today and just make it work. Sir Raven let me order a few dresses and other little things, and my pretty Spring dress arrived. Now, if Spring could just get here for me to wear it!